16 pregnant & alone

In Waco I was alone I had to learn how to survive on my own, to not depend on anyone, that is a task til this day I have not conquered. Larry was due home in three weeks and I knew I would tell him the truth. Now more than ever I needed the military allottment I got every month. I would not have my son in a charity hospital. I found a job at a poultry plant and the days passed slowly. I had gotten so use to Robert being there, the change seemed as though I would never adjust. It was now the end of May and I started to feel like I was four months pregnant.I was in bed Sunday morning 5.30 A.M. when I heard someone at the door.It was Larry, he was here no warning .I knew he could never take Roberts place but, I agreed for him to stay.He was out of the military after 30 days and we would move to Baytown, make a clean start. The months went by but, Roberts memory refused to fade. I now even 39 years later remember the sound of his voice the smell of his skin. I knew as sure as the sun comes up in the morning I would never love Larry it just wasn't there when my son was born I would be gone . For now it was true I did have to play house. One day I would love again ,one day I told myself but, not today.